A Decade Of Pain…
As I sit in the dark,
looking over the past decade of agony,
I cannot but help feeling…
There was a time I was a young God in the sun!
Everything I wished was mine merely for the taking.
Anything. Anywhere. Anytime.
A child of the 80’s, there was very little I could not have.
It came on suddenly.
A knife stroke from a demon hand,
Hidden in plain daylight.
And then began the real battle…
Every movement, every breath
Fought for with grim determination.
At the cost of yet another small piece of me.
An offering, as it were, to that demon ravener stalking me.
Step by step, inch by ragged inch,’
I gave way before its merciless onslaught.
Unwavering in its burning hatred,
It sought nothing less than the total dissolutionment
Of all I ever was or could have been.
The past ten years have been a rearguard action.
Striving to hold on to my sanity,
As my physical self was slowly mutilated;
Inch, by yard, by jagged, tearing slice.
I once held my dreams in my very hands.
And have been forced to watch them
Pour out through my fingers like
Arid bits of bloody sand….